Opening of the Constitutional

Almost every month for the pay year or so we have enjoyed evenings in Farsley at the event Trouble at Mill.  We’ve seen artistic dancers, who paint portraits as they dance.  Heard ghost stories, talked at length about death and watched a full blown opera.  Then we heard the news that it was being demolished.  We were disappointed but it’s not the end of the world as the amazing team behind trouble were hoping to open a new venue and rather than big events once a month hold smaller more intimate evenings every weekend. The first evening would be a paid event that included membership, as it was going to become a members only club.  We were in for a treat as well as a performance by Astra Luna we were going to watch an Edinburgh Festival winning act and a lovely and so talented Soprano sang a variety of solos.  What an amazing way to open the new club.  Can’t wait for our next visit.

This got me

It’s been a journey and I honestly don’t know how long I will last.  Each month we try, we know everything we  can about our infertility journey.  I’m tired of the advice, as well meaning as it is, you do not know what we are going through.  Yes I smile, I joke, I laugh but deep down I hurt.  Recently a lady I work with said “I’m so jealous of you because you don’t have to go home and look after any children, you have no responsibilities.”  We have spoken about infertility, she had her first through IVF, it seems that once you have a baby you forget.  This picture came up on my Instagram and it got me in the feels.

I need to up my game next year

I’m all about the challenges this year, alongside the 1000 mile challenge I also decided to do the Goodreads boom challenge.  I set myself a target of reading 16 books in 2018, my thinking was a book a month with four in the summer holidays.  One thing I know I lose when I’m stressed, which is also one thing that would help calm me, is reading.  My worries, which realistically I know are

insignificant can become mammoth in my head but when I read I forget them and the nasty little voices in my head are quietened.  Imagine my joy

when I completed my reading challenge in September, from an epic novel about American Gods to a story about Mrs Westaways inheritance I have dipped into all kinds of genres, but have found myself less drawn to romances and more to thrillers and chillers.  Here’s to more books in the future. 

We had the whole place to ourselves

Maybe it’s because it was the first weekend after school began or maybe because it wasn’t quite as warm as it had been formwhatever reason we had the whole beach to ourselves.  We climbed over the dunes, filled with broken bottles and burned out bbq’s and found a beautiful empty beach.  We had so much fun playing in the shallows and throwing around our frisbee.  I only wish I’d brought a blanket I could have stayed all day.

Who knew?

We arrived in Blackpool as everything was closing, at this time of year it’s the time to arrive so that you can make the most of the loominayshuns.  Filling that time usually involves walking along the front, eating crap or dribbling your money away on slot machines.  This time I decided we should go up the tower, I’d never been GO couldn’t remember if he had, the tickets cost about as much as we’d spend on food and crap so it seemed worth it.

Theexperience begins with a 4D show then a fast ride up the elevator to the top.  So far so good.  I was happy as Larry until I stepped off the elevator, there was a walkway made of glass and that was when the trouble began.

I haven’t got a fear of heights, ok, I can feel butterflies in my stomach on ladders/up trees/on cliff edge but that is an adrenaline rush surely?  I used to rock climb (not well, but I did it), have abseiled down cliffs and thrown myself of mountains with two planks of wood strapped to my feet but nothing prepared me for those windows floors!  

I couldn’t do it, I was petrified complete strangers were guided me, supporting me, helping me.  Some laughed, until they tried to cross the floor themselves, ha ha, fools.

After a lot of psyching myself up I eventually managed to walk across it.  My favourite moment was when a rough, tough Scouser completely guy couldn’t walk it either.  His exasperated girlfriend laughed; “I wouldn’t mind but he’s a roofer!”

So today I conquered a fear I didn’t know I had!