I've been away for a while

I have not been at my best recently, work and home have been quite stressful.  At school we are constantly being scrutinised and before we are able to make any changes everything has been changed.  We are under intense pressure as if the school doesn't pass the Little Grey Men inspection (whenever that may be) they will be put into a category. I'm trying to remember that I want to put myself first this year.  It is very difficult and I can feel myself starting to shut down, I have no enthusiasm for the work, I don't eat, and when I get home I make a nest and fall into it.  I'm usually asleep by half eight.  It has had an impact on my life as a whole, I am feeling run down and seem to pick up every bug going.  The last thing on my mind is to fill out our adoption workbook (all 60 pages and 110 boxes).  Yet we are being pressurised by the council to have it all completed as soon as possible so they can hit their targets.  I understand that everyone is under pressure but I am finding myself rebelling against it.  I knew it wasn't going to be easy but I am not happy about the attitude.  I have tried to explain that in the future being a full time teacher may be too difficult and that supply offers some security and flexibility but our SW just keeps saying I have to stay at the school because I need to get maternity leave.  I don't agree, I think that   I need to give my time an attention to our child/ren and put their needs first. Well we will see what happens.